Visual + Multimedia Work
Visual + Multimedia Work
A selection of different things made with a variety of media.
Exit Strategies (Death Posture III), 2025
Steel, black ropes, black acrylic tray, IKEA spice jar, vegan pill capsules, black nail polish, cassette players, cable ties, audio
245cm x 245cm x 245cm (physical structure), 120 minutes (audio)
A multimedia installation for the 2025 Royal College of Art Degree Show, Exit Strategies (Death Posture III) continues the theme of the Blackpill, a particularly pessimistic and nihilistic subsection of the incel community.
Put Me Through It, 2025
Vintage meat grinder, red bentonite clay
Initially intended as a performance piece, Put Me Through It concerns the aftershock of domestic violence and consists of red bentonite clay forced through a vintage meat grinder. Strands of broken clay represent the ordeal of (quite literally) getting ‘through it’.
Marcus N. (Black Pill Series), 2025
Multimedia installation, 17’48”
A multimedia installation series based around sound pieces created from interviews with ‘blackpilled’ incels reflecting on their lives, their personal relationships, and mental health.
The Blackpill refers to a particularly nihilistic worldview and has been linked to acts of extreme violence, with young women often being the primary targets.
NightMother (Fury), 2023
Digital video and sound recording, 7’46”
Threshold, 2023
Digital video, spoken word, and field recordings, 5’25”
I Dream of the Same House Again and Again (Death Posture), 2023
Steel, rope, clay, stage blood, LEDs, cables ties, bandages, digital video and sound improvisation, variable dimensions
Garden of Black and Red Agonies, 2023
Digital video and field recording, 7’32”
Promising Young Woman, 2022
Digital photograph, variable dimensions
Love Letter For Oblivion, 2022
Digital video and sound improvisation, 2’23”
Oh, Cosmos, 2022
Live improvisation using voice, singing bowl, percussion, and a looper, 13’40”
Axile, 2022
Digital video and sound improvisation, 6’14”
Axile, 2022
Digital video and sound improvisation, 6’14”
Stranger, 2022
Writing, audio, and videoloops, 2’31”
As I understand it, you’re supposed to be able to feel your body. Stuff brushing past you; your clothes resting on your skin; the bus seat under your butt and thighs. I can’t feel things like this, even when I try.
I used to feel like I was the biggest failure in group therapy sessions when they’d do mindfulness exercises and ask us to think about the physical sensations we felt. I know it was all about grounding us and making us aware of the present, but it just freaked me out and made me panic.
I dunno if it’s a sexual assault thing or an autistic whose skin used to feel like it was on fire when I was forced to wear certain fabrics thing. Or maybe it was even a coping mechanism I developed to deal with the other coping mechanism I’d developed where my body had to be physically ‘balanced’ all the time, and I’d end up driving myself even crazier by touching opposite sides of my body to try to compensate for moments where one side would get a sensation while another side wouldn’t thus rendering me ‘imbalanced’. I was especially sensitive to this when I was anxious or upset. (I used to wonder if this was an OCD thing but I was never diagnosed with it so probably not.)
None of this is to say that I don’t physically feel pain, or groping hands in packed out bars; I bloody do, and these sensations scream so loudly in my head that they more than make up for the lack of sensation at all other times. But I don’t feel the little things anymore; the things that help situate you in a physical space.
It might be linked to the things I mentioned earlier, or it might not. Don’t think I’ll ever really know. But it makes me feel really out of place, even within my own body. Like, I’ve never fit in anywhere anyway, so at least being a stranger in my own body is consistent, I guess.
Stranger, 2022
Writing, audio, and videoloops, 2’31”
As I understand it, you’re supposed to be able to feel your body. Stuff brushing past you; your clothes resting on your skin; the bus seat under your butt and thighs. I can’t feel things like this, even when I try.
I used to feel like I was the biggest failure in group therapy sessions when they’d do mindfulness exercises and ask us to think about the physical sensations we felt. I know it was all about grounding us and making us aware of the present, but it just freaked me out and made me panic.
I dunno if it’s a sexual assault thing or an autistic whose skin used to feel like it was on fire when I was forced to wear certain fabrics thing. Or maybe it was even a coping mechanism I developed to deal with the other coping mechanism I’d developed where my body had to be physically ‘balanced’ all the time, and I’d end up driving myself even crazier by touching opposite sides of my body to try to compensate for moments where one side would get a sensation while another side wouldn’t thus rendering me ‘imbalanced’. I was especially sensitive to this when I was anxious or upset. (I used to wonder if this was an OCD thing but I was never diagnosed with it so probably not.)
None of this is to say that I don’t physically feel pain, or groping hands in packed out bars; I bloody do, and these sensations scream so loudly in my head that they more than make up for the lack of sensation at all other times. But I don’t feel the little things anymore; the things that help situate you in a physical space.
It might be linked to the things I mentioned earlier, or it might not. Don’t think I’ll ever really know. But it makes me feel really out of place, even within my own body. Like, I’ve never fit in anywhere anyway, so at least being a stranger in my own body is consistent, I guess.
Ensanguining the Skies/Memories Equal Death, 2018-2019
A series of work made for the final project of my Foundation degree, which was shown at Borough Road Gallery in July 2019.
51°29'44.1"N 0°22'04.0"E (Ensanguining the Skies)
A spoken word piece reminiscing over almost forgotten times and the hope that they contained, with a backdrop of field recordings made at the precise co-ordinates given in the title.
Ensanguining the Skies/Memories Equal Death, 2018-2019
A series of work made for the final project of my Foundation degree, which was shown at Borough Road Gallery in July 2019.
51°29'44.1"N 0°22'04.0"E (Ensanguining the Skies)
A spoken word piece reminiscing over almost forgotten times and the hope that they contained, with a backdrop of field recordings made at the precise co-ordinates given in the title.
